4/4/11

Today I picked up Bailee and Miles from daycare.  I love seeing the smile on Bailee’s face when she sees me.  When we got in the car to come home, I put Miles in first, as usual.  Then Bailee and I walked to the other side so that she could get in her seat.  As I was about to start the car, Bailee said something about kissing Miles.  I thought she meant that I had not kissed him, only to find out that she was all buckled in and couldn’t reach him to give him a kiss.  What a sweet sister.

Miles had some fever when I picked him up.  When we got to gigi’s he enjoyed a bottle and then pepaw holding him and rocking him.  He tried so hard to laugh but would start coughing instead.  I do hope he gets better soon!

Bailee had a sharp fingernail and I said something about letting her mommy cut them.  Her reply, “I don’t want my mommy to cut them because she is crazy”!

Her daddy reported that a little boy came up to Bailee today and held her hand when she got to school.  Daddy gave him the evil eye and whispered in Bailee’s ear that she doesn’t need to hold little boy’s hands.  What will he ever do when she gets older??

Miles is now reaching for people when he wants them.  He is also almost sitting alone.  My how he has grown over the last few weeks.

Recently, I told Bailee that TahTah was coming to see her.  She says, “Good, I want to touch her!”

Bailee and I were talking about horses one day and she informed me that she doesn’t like horses.  Hmmm, no she only likes white ponies!

Here’s a couple of her new phrases: 

I commented that Miles would probably wake up soon, she replied “he is so predictable”.

And another that I can’t remember why she said it is, “this is serious”.

I still miss them each day, but have realized that right now I am just not healthy enough to take care of them full-time.  Hopefully, sinus surgery, tomorrow will be the beginning of my health improving.

3/30/11

Last night was a long night.  I’m not really sure why I had such a hard time getting to sleep.  Could it be the caffeine in my new pain medicine?

Melissa took me for my CT Scan and pre-op visit this morning.   For the most part the people who waited on us today seemed to be very rude.  We thought maybe they were upset because they’d spent money on pedicures so that they could wear flip flops and the temperature was in the 30s….it isn’t spring weather yet.  I don’t much like for my feet to be cold either. 

I was glad that Melissa was with me because focus was a real problem today.  Each person has to ask questions and at times they each ask the same.  They each enter my answers in the computer system which already has many of the answers.  I guess I should be thankful.

Red had a unit of blood removed yesterday at his dr. appt. This resulted in his normally high blood pressure dropping to normal, which is very low for him.  He has been in bed all day today not feeling well.  I think back how Bailee would sneak into pepaw’s room, pat him on his leg and ask him if he was ok.  She is such a caring little person.

When I had oral surgery recently, Bailee and Miles, came to visit me and brought me some yummy ice cream.  She got up on the bed with me and we shared it.  That day and night is pretty much a blur in my memory, but I do remember that special time. 

Changes

It’s been a while…with some changes along the way.  Isn’t that what life is all about….changes?  Gigi has had a (NSI) Never-ending Sinus Infection.   Three rounds of antibiotics, oral surgery, another round of antibiotics, two cultures, pain pills, and I still have the NSI.  Surgery is scheduled but if I should start to feel much, much better, I’m to call the nurse and postpone surgery.  The past month especially is pretty blurry.

For as long as I can remember I have had problems with separation anxiety.  I was such a momma’s girl that I never wanted to be away from her.  On occasion when I would visit with my grandparents, 4 hours away, I don’t think a day went by that I didn’t cry. The longest I ever stayed was a week, but at the time it seemed an eternity. It wasn’t that I didn’t love them because I did.  I just did not like being away from my mother.  I think now about how much my grandmother did to entertain me and how hard it must have been for her.  Wish I could tell her that I’m sorry that my visits made it difficult for her.  I couldn’t tell her that it would be different if I could redo it, because I’m pretty sure I would have still been miserable while away from my mother.

One of the biggest changes is that I am no longer keeping Bailee and Miles.  They are now going to full-time daycare.  To say that I had a meltdown when this occurred is an understatement. I’m sorry for getting so upset and making it even more difficult for their mommy and daddy to make the decision. Would I get upset if I had it to do over again?  Yes.  I just now can talk about it without getting a lump in my throat.  To some, I know this is silly.  Even though I know that this decision is best for all concerned right now, I still have a hard time dealing with the fact that they are not here every day.  All I could think of was that my babies were not going to be with me.  I miss them dearly.  Remember, I said I have had problems with separation anxiety?  The truth is, I am not feeling well enough to take care of them full-time and right now not even part-time.  Hopefully, I will be able to keep them at least part-time in the future. 

No longer will I be the person who hears the cute things Bailee says each day.  She is my sunshine and she makes me laugh and I miss that.  I won’t be the one who enjoys the “firsts” of Miles.  He is rolling everywhere and I missed it.  He says some sounds now, ma, da, and I’m pretty sure I heard gi last week.  His smile is contagious and I miss seeing it daily.

One thing that will never change is this...I will always be their gigi!

While taking pepaw to basketball practice, Bailee says, gigi the sun is smiling at me!  

 

Last week Bailee entertained two plumbers while they did some work at the house.  She renamed one of them Tony, not sure why she called him that. His name is really Keith. She was in the other room and I was talking to them, holding Miles.  When I went to where she was, she asked, gigi did you kiss the plumbers?  I had kissed Miles on his sweet little head and I guess she heard the smack of the kiss.

 

TahTah came over to take a few photos of Bailee and Miles.  She brought Bailee a Justin Beiber t-shirt.  I'm not sure she will ever take it off.

 

When getting ready to leave today, Bailee asked gigi if she would walk her to her car.  Once I got there, she wanted me to get in with her.

 

Yesterday, Bailee told me that when she grows up, she wants to be a gigi.  Why?  Because I just love you!  My heart melted.

 

TahTah and Unca came over to stay with Bailee and Miles while gigi took pepaw to the dentist.  Bailee thoroughly enjoys being with them.  

 

Lately, both Bailee and Miles have been fascinated by pepaw's hat.

 

Bailee has learned to "snap" her fingers, reminds me of her "whistle".  She moves her fingers and makes snap noise with her mouth.  Of course, she wanted to know if I could do it to.  She had to show me the "correct" way after my fingers made the noise instead of my mouth.

 

Miles is also fascinated with the triangle above pepaw's bed.  He is learning that it can be used for pull-ups. You can see how hard he is concentrating.

 

 

At times yesterday Bailee didn't seem to feel very good.  When I walked in living room, this is where I found her

I thought she was enjoying laying in Miles's bed, but she was actually stuck and couldn't get out by herself!
She took a very late nap, waking up at one point and telling me she needed more nap.  She said she would sleep some more at gigi's and then go to her house to sleep. 

Today Bailee is sick with a fever of 101.  I hate it when babies are sick, just makes gigi want to make it all better.

One last picture of one of my babies

Doesn't Phoebe look so pretty and clean?

 

BETWEEN SNOW DAYS

After several snow days last week, it was good to get back in our routine at least for Monday and Tuesday.  Now another snow day and this snow is unbelievable.  I don't know that I have ever seen so much, so quickly, and it is still coming down.   

 

Bailee recently made her first trip to the dentist.  From what I've been told, she was a superstar!  I'm not surprised. While playing with her friend, Phoebe, she tells me that Phoebe needs to go to the dentist.  Why, I ask?  Because her breath stinks, pew.

 

To say that Miles loves his big sister is an understatement.  His face lights up at the sound and sight of her.  While he was sitting in the pac-n-play, she wanted in with him.   So being the gigi that I am, I put her in.  Bailee did her usual job of entertaining him.  Can't you tell by the smile on his face?

 

 

 

After a while, I peeked in at them and saw them laying side by side, holding hands and watching Caillou.

 

 

 

Bailee wore her "wedding dress" one morning.  Of course, she is going to marry Justin Bieber.  Wish I had a picture to share.  Before she would watch the dancing princesses, she had to take her jeans off.  After all, princesses don't wear pants. 

 

Miles was sleeping soundly, so I took that time to do some much needed laundry.  Bailee proudly comes in laundry room and announces, "Gigi, I just already waked Miles up!"  Thank you Bailee. 

 

Bailee climbed in rocking chair with me and said, "gigi I'm so happy to be with you" and then shut her eyes for our quiet time.  How sweet is that?

 

Bailee woke up from quiet time to see gigi watching food network.  She became very excited by the "fact" that Giada has a "bizzy bake oben" just like hers and they are going to make cookies at her house.  Gigi can come too for this event!

 

When Miles woke from his nap, we went to visit pepaw in the bedroom.  Miles is very fascinated by the trapeze bar above the bed.  He acts as though he wants to do a few chin ups on it.

 

I just want to say that there is no way I could do or would even want to keep Bailee and Miles if it weren't for the fact that Bailee is the sweetest three year old. Ever.

 

 

Daisy

Bailee and Miles help get me going on Mondays, as well as the other days of the week. 

Pepaw is talking to Bailee and he tells her "thank you". I can't remember what the thank you was for.  Bailee says "you're welcome".  End of conversation?  Pepaw once again says, "thank you".  In her little sassy voice she says, "I said you're welcome".  That cracked me up and I know I probably shouldn't have laughed but it was hilarious to me.  Hmmm, wonder who she gets her sassiness from?  Could it be Tah Tah?

Cinderella was the doll of the day.  She was sick with Bieber Fever so Bailee was going to check her heart.  Cinderella survived.

Miles has about mastered holding his own bottle. See?  Little guy better not get too used to it though, because gigi still intends to help and rock.

We have quiet time every day between 12 and 1.  Bailee knows this and doesn't really fuss about it.  I always tell her she doesn't have to go to sleep.  This usually happens:

  

Bailee looked in the frig today and says there's Daisy. Not knowing what she was talking about I asked and this is it:

Oatmeal Is Healthy

Miles continues to laugh more, stay awake more, and is becoming a happy baby.  Yay, hopefully no more Mr. Cranky Pants.  He is beginning to hold his bottle and enjoys being fed with a spoon.  Favorites so far are oatmeal, sweet potatoes and bananas.  Speaking of oatmeal, which is very heart healthy, Bailee's breakfast consisted of an oatmeal creme pie.  She has learned to get them out of the pantry all by herself.

 

Ever see a baby laugh in his sleep?  Miles did just that one day this week.  He must have been having a very funny dream or maybe just so happy to have gigi rocking him!

 

Here are some of the cute things Bailee said or did this week:

 

Bailee: Gigi can I tell you a favor?  (said while sitting on potty)

Gigi:  Yes Bailee what is it?

Bailee:  Would you hand me my dbd?  (why would she need her dbd while sitting on potty?)

 

Bailee found a toy "mangazine" left over from Christmas and wanted me to "talk it to her" .  She looked at it so much the cover came off.

 

Bailee's fairy baby was her main focus on Friday.  What I would have given for a hidden camera to capture her being a little mother.  What I saw just from peeking in the bedroom door melted my heart.  Each day when she leaves Bailee wants to take something from gigi's house with her.  Friday it was her fairy baby.

 

Monday was work day for gigi...not sure how much longer it will last...hopefully longer than they are saying.  Work is my social outlet and I do enjoy being around other adults on work days.  The three of us at our table have fun even when it is them making fun of me because of my horrible hearing.  Leah is so kind...she says my mis-hearing is due to the sounds of the machines.

 

TahTah kept the babies during the morning on Tuesday.  Bailee and Miles both are so very lucky to have her in their lives.  I feel pretty lucky, as well, having her in mine.  She is amazing.

 

Gigi is having some health issues of her own lately...pre-cancerous leukoplakia...has led to two MRI's in the last week...crossing fingers that nothing else shows up.  Crossing fingers worked...no cancer!